"DEAR SUBSTITUTE"

How is my beautiful girl? I pray every day that the trauma she suffered has been healed. Are you loving, nurturing, enriching, and spoiling her to the same extent that I did? You'd better be. She deserves no less and I best never find out that she received less than she so rightfully deserves. I wonder often how you explained my sudden disappearence from her life? Please know and remember that I will tell her the truth one day. That my ex and I made some big mistakes. That she was stolen from my life. That you were too selfish, jealous, and unfeeling to allow us to say goodbye. I consider what you did to be the cruelest, most unmother like decision ever! To be jealous of our bond says a lot about your character. Not good things either. You will never get it. I understand you've never had a child of your own? You'll never get it. I shared the 1st four years of her life. Because of me she was; happy, vivacious, loving, intelligent, playful, giving, thoughtful, sweet, a complete joy to be around. All that she is, is a reflection of the time, love, caring, and nurturing she received. Never doubt, there is much left undone and unsaid between her and I. I will always be waiting for her contact. I will always have open arms and an open heart for her. She was ripped from my life but, she'll never be ripped from my heart and mind. Sleep easy and know, that I'm here. Waiting. Till then, you'd best love, protect, and treat her right. Because one day you'll deal with me. The heart never forgets! I love you sweet Ahmi girl! Forever and Always plus One more day! XXXOOO's Mom

"GOOD BYE FOR NOW"

When I started this blog in July 2011, I was broken. The monsters who are in charge of the so called "Child Protective Services" in particular, Genny Wrocklage, had destroyed my world. I take responsibility for choices I made. However, that gave the witch no license to lie to my face, stab me in the back, traumatize an innocent child and worst of all, not allow us to say goodbye. Instead the bitch made decisions that were adult based. That ignored and stepped on the loving bond my sweet Ahmi girl and I shared. Her only reasoning was it threatened the substitutes. She didn't give a crap about the pain she'd cause to Ahmi! Yet, she's supposedly for "the best interests of children." The whole agency has turned into a corrupted pile of DOG CRAP! I live for the day they will be put in check! Well, I've come a long way since that summer day a year and a half ago. I'm now divorced and will have all my ex's money (the one thing he truly cares about). This blog is forever tied to the witch who lied to my face. Thanks to family court, I've found a sense of healing and peace. I know my girl will look for me. The heart doesn't forget. God brought her and I together and he won't forsake us! I just have to be patient, build my new future, and wait! Thank God for the power of the Internet! Thank you to all my readers. Putting the story out there was a big step in my healing! I miss my girl every minute of every day. I'll love her forever and always plus one more day. I know she'll look for me and I'll be waiting with open arms! If you're going through your own hell with the as$holes, I pray you find your way through. Hold tight to your self esteem! Remember, you're so much better/more than what they say. They thrive on ripping people apart. They're trash! Hopefully there will be change one day soon! Keep fighting and speaking out! I will! Don't know if this will truly be the last post. Death and taxes are the only sure things in life. If anything comes up, I will post it. For now it's time to concentrate on building my new life. Love and Thanks to all. I love you sweetest Ahmi girl. Forever and Always, plus One more Day!xoxo Mom Lynn Connearney

"DEAR GENNY WRECKLAGE, I NEED YOU TO KNOW.."

I'm not consumed by an overwhelming hatred of you anymore. I do still hate your guts and think you're a two faced backstabbing, lying, witch. I would cross the street rather than ever help you out in an emergency. However, knowing that my blog is tied to you for the rest of time, that any of your so called "accomplishments" are connected with the real you, helps. Heck, the emails between you and Bill have brought over 1,000 views alone. Not that you freaking give a crap but, I ache every minute of every day for my girl. The tears don't fall as often but, my heart will only begin to heal the day that phone call comes. I know 100% it will come. Although you and the substitutes wouldn't allow us closure. The heart doesn't forget. My girl will search. Thank God for the miracle of the Internet. No matter where I may be, I'll always be just a phone call away! My  one regret is that it took me more than a year to read the emails I found on Bill's pc in July of 2011. When he asked me to move in with him 2/3/11, I thought his motivation was the $ he'd been court ordered to start paying me that very day. I now know he'd already hatched a plan to try and destroy me any way he could. I'm glad I ignored his pleas to cancel the divorce papers. I have no doubt he wanted to refile as the plaintiff. Wow! You were in bed with a diabolical, twisted, lying, abusive sack of crap. Yet, you've never seemed to get that. Yet, you're in charge of "...best interests of children..." How screwed up is that? You're college degree that Daddy paid for might look nice but, it's no better than toilet paper. You don't know crap about the human psyche nor about loving/being a parent. I hope and pray for the day when your agency is put in check and there is finally oversight to everything that is done in, "..the best interest of the child.." When there is no longer a $4,000 bounty on a child's life. When the corrupted curtain of secrecy is finally ripped away from the Juvenile court, "the best interest of the child" may finally be served! p.s. I won't bother signing this. You know very well who I am. A copy of this email will be posted to my blog by the end of today. Unlike yourself, I don't have anything to hide. lynmco-childpunishingservice.blogspot.com "Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." - Theodor Geisel    LMC