"LIES SHE TOLD

Genny Wrocklage testified in court to the following lies; #1 "We were happy when Mr. C. moved out because we felt the marriage was a hinderance to the Adoption. We felt the adoption could now move forward." Within minutes she said "We have concerns about the child's safety if this court orders her placed back with Mrs. C." Well, which is it? BTW from Aug. 2010 until 1/5/2011 Miss Wrocklage saw my child one time, when per her request, I brought the baby to her office. Exactly how concerned was she? #2 "Red flags came up in Mrs. C. psychological testing." Really? That testing took place the summer of 2009. I was very persistent re: the results. I reasoned I had every right to know. I asked repeatedly about them. The agency said it was the Drs. responsibility to review them w/ me. The Dr. said the opposite. Back and forth it went. I did finally wonder what was up and asked my Adoptions worker if in fact, there was something wrong. He said,"Lynn if there had been anything wrong the baby would have been removed. There's just some confusion about who's responsibility it is to go over them with you." Finally a counselor I saw for a few months told me it was all about money. He took an extra hour one week to go over it with me because, as he said, "It was ridiculous that I'd been getting the run around for 2 months and I did deserve to hear the results. That day when I finally heard them, there was Nothing that alarmed me! The biggest thought I had was "hmm interesting that she picked up on that." That, happened to be, a quirk of my personality. Nothing that was alarming, dangerous, etc... So, the question is if there were so called, "red flags" how was it they never said anything about it for 16 months?? #3 "I know that you and she share a deep bond, that you are in fact her Mom. I respect that." Really, respect it so much that you mentally and emotionally traumatized her by keeping me away from her for 2 days when I filed court papers? And worst of all refused us the chance of closure? Refused us the chance to say goodbye to each other? I submit Ladies and Gentleman, Genny Wrocklage committed perjury in a court of law. I later pointed out these 3 facts(among others)to her and she never responded. Of course not, what can a liar say?

"I COULDN'T LOVE YOU MORE"

All my life, I wished for you, ever since I was a little girl. I was blessed with a son. I was much too young and immature yet, he was loved wholeheartedly. Many years passed and I'd almost accepted that I'd never have a daughter to love. Then you came into my life. A serious, beautiful tiny girl. With your eyes of an old soul, you stole my heart away. I nurtured you, sang to you, played with you, nursed you through illness. Most of all, I simply Loved you. I watched you grow and thrive. Although you didn't grow under my heart, you grew in my HEART. I loved you deeply and completely! One day an Evil Bitch, Genny Wrocklage took you away and gave you to strangers. Although she took a piece of my heart and soul, she can NEVER take our love and our bond! I'm waiting for the day my sweet girl when we WILL be reunited! I will tell you all about the magical, wonderful, brief 4 years I got to love you. I will tell you about the people who wouldn't allow us the human decency of the chance to say Goodbye! I'm waiting sweetheart! Waiting for your contact! I love you sweetest girl! Forever and Always, plus One more day!

"WAS IT TIME TO COLLECT THE BOUNTY?"

Was it? I ask myself that a lot lately. Was the time up for my daughters pay out? Is the state so desperate for money? Did Genny Wrocklage destroy 2 lives because the state needed the $4000? It's hard to see it any other way.

"IT'S ALL I HAVE"

A couple of people thought this blog wasn't a good idea. One thought among others was re: the agency and what "they" would think. Honestly, I couldn't give a CRAP! Who the hell am I trying to impress? No one! They've already destroyed my life, refused to let me say goodbye to my child, shattered my heart and my soul, shredded my self esteem, and slandered me in a Court of law. This blog is my outlet. I've written nothing but, the 100% truth. They may have lied/shut me up in all other avenues. This is one medium They have Absolutely No Control OVER! I'm not going to continue sinking into the black endless pit of despair! This blog is my attempt to reclaim my self esteem! Genny Wrocklage may have gotten away with LYING in a court of law. This is my testament! My chance to publicly say BullShit! Someone else asked me about fear re: things I'm writing about. "Fear?" There's nothing to fear when you speak/write the truth. My Dad taught me that a long time ago. I still believe it whole heartedly. No one can dispute what I've written here without exposing themselves as Liars. I'd love to get challenged in regards to this blog. I'd have the chance to defend myself and refute the lies. But, it won't happen. Because the Social Worker has already shown her true self, An Evil, back stabbing, two faced, lying BITCH! I dare them to challenge my blog! I'd welcome it!

"HOW DOES ONE JUST MOVE ON?"

The depression I've sunk into since the start of the year just seems to get deeper. Although my head knows that life must go on, my heart is shattered. It's been made so much worse by the fact, that we were denied the chance to say goodbye! There's no closure only a devastating sense of loss. Although I've begged many times, my pleas always fell on deaf ears. My role now reduced to a "former caretaker." Our deep, loving bond minimized. Apparently, the fact that my baby talked about me all the time was "a threat to what they were trying to build with her." Excuse me but, who's interests are we concerned with? The child's or the adults? If my role was so minimal, why does it matter how often she talks about me? On the other hand, why would she talk about me all the time if we didn't share a bond? Just one more example of a Social Worker speaking yet, nothing of substance coming out of her mouth. You're supposed to just accept what the worker says without argument. I'll be the first to admit, that just isn't me. My mouth combined with my emotions=trouble. Because if you display emotions, well, there must be something wrong with you. The whole system SUCKS! A broken system run by broken people if you ask me. I mean WTF? You love and nurture a child for 4 years. One day she's there, the next gone. Not even allowed to say goodbye. How the hell do you just turn and walk away? How do you not feel overwhelmed with devastating grief and anger? It's been 199 days and the pain is just as raw today as it was in Jan.

"TO THE SUBSTITUTE"

Although we haven't met, I already know I can never like or respect you. I begged over and over for the chance to say goodbye to MY sweet angel. I was told "she talks about me all the time." that somehow that was a threat for you. If it wasn't for me loving and bonding with that little girl over the past 4 years, How could she bond with anyone? She's the Awesome little girl she is because of the time and the love that we shared. If that threatens you, too Damn bad! I loved her first. Since she was a tiny baby. I have complete faith that the bond we share will remain. You're never going to erase me from her mind or her heart! When she comes looking for me for the memories only I can share with her, I'll be waiting to reclaim her. You may want to explain how jealous you were re: our bond. So much so, you wouldn't do the decent thing and allow us to say Goodbye. Something we both deserved. Because I will tell her. At this moment in time you have a piece of my heart and soul. I love that child with every beat of my heart. Every breath that I take. I could have been an Allie to you. However, the decision re: a final visit for the 2 of us now makes that impossible. I'll be waiting right here. You have a temporary place in her life. She and I will be reunited. You know nothing of her 1st 4 years. I have her scrapbooks and her baby journals. They'll be with me. The worker fit her in once every 2 to 3 months. She has nothing to fill in. My baby love will look for me one day soon. I'll be waiting with open arms! You'll be the nightmare that temporarily interrupted our lives. Great thing about the Internet, no matter where she or I are, we will be REUNITED! Sooner than you think! Count on it!

"INCOMPETENT OR SLOPPY?"

I had the misfortune to cross paths with a condescending Bitch in the Spring of 2009. You ever meet someone and within moments you dislike them? It took seconds on this occasion. "Barbie", not her real name, oozed a fake, condescending, judgmental attitude that immediately set my teeth on edge. The way she presents herself, you'd never guess the major screw up in her past that she should be VERY ashamed of! Apparently 4 or 5 years ago, she was sent out to investigate a VERY serious charge of abuse involving a parent and a 6 year old. Well apparently, Miss "professional" asks the child about the alleged abuse in front of the accused parent! Now I ask, what is the probability of a 6 yr. old child giving an honest answer with the offender sitting right there? Well, Barbie apparently closed out the complaint and went on her merry way. Problem is, the child was being subjected to horrendous abuse. Because of Barbie, not only did the child suffer an additional 3 years but, a 3 year old sibling also became a victim! I met both of these children. Both of them will suffer the rest of their lives, struggling to heal from what they suffered. If only Barbie hadn't failed them. The younger child might have been spared. The older child would have definitely been in a better place, mentally and emotionally than where they ended up!

"HEAVY HANDED"

A child was placed in our home who was 2 or 3 months from reunifying. Mom was a loving parent who'd made a bad choice. w/in a month, she was picking up her child 2x during the week and an overnight on the weekends. Mom soon asked them(court, SW)for the whole weekend. I had to call SW to confirm (I was happy for her) the SW was very neg. and difficult about adding hrs."too fast". For goodness sakes, she'd done everything, her children had been in system awhile, she always brought the child back on time, fed, etc...This Mom was 1 of only 2 parents I allowed to come to my house. Since the judge had approved it and the SW was IMO being a control freak and difficult for no good reason, we started Fri.-Sun. and 4 hrs. 3x during the week. I felt the SW was over controlling and petty. Because of things this child said and some behaviors that were being demonstrated, the Mom and I were both positive that her child had been molested by a teenager in 1 of the previous 3 homes the child had been placed in. We both reported our concerns. I also specified conversations I'd had with the child. The investigation was a joke. Over before it started. "I've asked and don't get any answers that make sense...' Maybe because, they're 4 and barely know you? While it's true the child never did open up to her, The info that both Mom and I passed on was reliable and should have been looked into more aggressively!

"THREATS, LIES, FALSE. INFORMATION"

There are a few things I learned in dealing with S. Workers and the agency in general. FACT#1. Social workers Love threats and use them excessively. Especially if you're not a good little soldier. Meaning, you fail to jump on command. Or, you may dare to disagree with something that's said and/or argue with them about something. No, no! Shame on you! Your own independent thoughts, strictly forbidden! You have forfeited your right to be a free thinking independent American citizen. FACT#2. Social Workers are Great liars! They are very capable of looking you in the eye and saying whatever they need to say in the moment. Lying to your face! Usually the lie is to shut you up and ensure they won't have to deal with you and maybe your icky emotions. When Genny Wrocklage Imposed a 2 day hold on my visiting the baby. I couldn't get a straight out answer to my question,"When can I see her?" I mean, WTF?? We'd been together everyday since she was 3 1/2 months old. I'd spent the last 4 years building a relationship of trust w/ this child. I'd always been there for her. The witch couldn't grasp where I was coming from. She got annoyed that I left her so many voice mails. Well, here's a concept B$tch, show people a little bit of courtesy and respect. Rather than blowing them off, answer their simple question and they'll leave you alone. DUH!! Because of her extreme rudeness and unprofessionalism and her subsequent busy voicemail, the bitch said in court that, "I seemed to have an unhealthy obsession with my daughter." I ask every mother reading my words, what would you do if you found yourself in a similar situation? Was it too much to expect a simple honest answer to my simple honest question? Since she's not a parent, I suppose she's simply incapable of understanding and/or thinking as one. Considering how my daughter reacted when I finally got to see her, It's a fact that, Genny Wrocklage inflicted severe mental and emotional torture and pain on an innocent child. She couldn't even accept responsibility for what she did. The Bitch tried to flip the blame onto my h. and I. Incredible! FACT#3. They will NEVER correct false information! If something is wrong and they write it down, even if it's proven later to be incorrect, They will never edit the original text. If they believe a scenario happened a certain way, that's how it happened, case closed! That's the way History is rewritten. Through the eyes of the CPS workers!