"GOOD BYE FOR NOW"

When I started this blog in July 2011, I was broken. The monsters who are in charge of the so called "Child Protective Services" in particular, Genny Wrocklage, had destroyed my world. I take responsibility for choices I made. However, that gave the witch no license to lie to my face, stab me in the back, traumatize an innocent child and worst of all, not allow us to say goodbye. Instead the bitch made decisions that were adult based. That ignored and stepped on the loving bond my sweet Ahmi girl and I shared. Her only reasoning was it threatened the substitutes. She didn't give a crap about the pain she'd cause to Ahmi! Yet, she's supposedly for "the best interests of children." The whole agency has turned into a corrupted pile of DOG CRAP! I live for the day they will be put in check! Well, I've come a long way since that summer day a year and a half ago. I'm now divorced and will have all my ex's money (the one thing he truly cares about). This blog is forever tied to the witch who lied to my face. Thanks to family court, I've found a sense of healing and peace. I know my girl will look for me. The heart doesn't forget. God brought her and I together and he won't forsake us! I just have to be patient, build my new future, and wait! Thank God for the power of the Internet! Thank you to all my readers. Putting the story out there was a big step in my healing! I miss my girl every minute of every day. I'll love her forever and always plus one more day. I know she'll look for me and I'll be waiting with open arms! If you're going through your own hell with the as$holes, I pray you find your way through. Hold tight to your self esteem! Remember, you're so much better/more than what they say. They thrive on ripping people apart. They're trash! Hopefully there will be change one day soon! Keep fighting and speaking out! I will! Don't know if this will truly be the last post. Death and taxes are the only sure things in life. If anything comes up, I will post it. For now it's time to concentrate on building my new life. Love and Thanks to all. I love you sweetest Ahmi girl. Forever and Always, plus One more Day!xoxo Mom Lynn Connearney

"DEAR GENNY WRECKLAGE, I NEED YOU TO KNOW.."

I'm not consumed by an overwhelming hatred of you anymore. I do still hate your guts and think you're a two faced backstabbing, lying, witch. I would cross the street rather than ever help you out in an emergency. However, knowing that my blog is tied to you for the rest of time, that any of your so called "accomplishments" are connected with the real you, helps. Heck, the emails between you and Bill have brought over 1,000 views alone. Not that you freaking give a crap but, I ache every minute of every day for my girl. The tears don't fall as often but, my heart will only begin to heal the day that phone call comes. I know 100% it will come. Although you and the substitutes wouldn't allow us closure. The heart doesn't forget. My girl will search. Thank God for the miracle of the Internet. No matter where I may be, I'll always be just a phone call away! My  one regret is that it took me more than a year to read the emails I found on Bill's pc in July of 2011. When he asked me to move in with him 2/3/11, I thought his motivation was the $ he'd been court ordered to start paying me that very day. I now know he'd already hatched a plan to try and destroy me any way he could. I'm glad I ignored his pleas to cancel the divorce papers. I have no doubt he wanted to refile as the plaintiff. Wow! You were in bed with a diabolical, twisted, lying, abusive sack of crap. Yet, you've never seemed to get that. Yet, you're in charge of "...best interests of children..." How screwed up is that? You're college degree that Daddy paid for might look nice but, it's no better than toilet paper. You don't know crap about the human psyche nor about loving/being a parent. I hope and pray for the day when your agency is put in check and there is finally oversight to everything that is done in, "..the best interest of the child.." When there is no longer a $4,000 bounty on a child's life. When the corrupted curtain of secrecy is finally ripped away from the Juvenile court, "the best interest of the child" may finally be served! p.s. I won't bother signing this. You know very well who I am. A copy of this email will be posted to my blog by the end of today. Unlike yourself, I don't have anything to hide. lynmco-childpunishingservice.blogspot.com "Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." - Theodor Geisel    LMC

"DEAR SOCIAL WRECKER"

Dear Genny Wrocklage aka Wrecklage or Social Wrecker, How has the past 16 months been for you? I'm sure you haven't lost any sleep or been so depressed all you could do was cry for days at a time. You wouldn't know anything about that. After all, you're in the business of wrecking lives and moving on right? I'm sure you must have no conscience. Otherwise how could you face yourself in the mirror day after day. Knowing what you've done. That you're in bed with an evil agency that rips children away from parents who love them and deposits them with strangers and the hell with any emotional damage along the way. After all, you've done your job right? The federal government pays the bounty and you're on to the next victim. Who gives a crap about the trauma done? You must be one cold hearted, evil bitch to work for such a demonic system! You made it much worse with the lies you spoke so readily. I never saw it coming. You had me so fooled right till the end. Right up till the day in court when you stuck that knife in my back! Good for you bitch! You did a great snow job on me. "I know she's your daughter. I've got your back. I know you two belong together." Lying, evil bitch! I fell for it hook, line, and sinker. What a fool I was! You showed me! Then you have the balls to come up to me seeking praise for the bull crap lies you'd just testified to in court?! Tell me, do you ever give Ahmi a second thought? Are you that sure about what you've done? Screw the emotional abuse and damage. One more check for the system! I want you to know, with medication and the help of a great therepist, I'm emerging from the black hell you condemned me to last year. However, I also want you to know, I hate your freaking guts as much as ever and I always will. Because I gave my trust to you and you ground it into the dirt. You stabbed me in the back so completely! That's why I will always hate the air you breathe. I know karma will catch you sooner or later. You will so deserve it! BTW I've known your address for more than a year. If all the vomit that came from your mouth about me was true, I would have used that knowledge in an evil way. I'm surprised someone with your education is so street stupid! I'm sure I'm not the first one you've pissed off. If I were you I'd be a little more cautious with my personal life and info. Someone who doesn't possess the restraint I have, may just come knocking one of these days. See you in Hell Bitch!

"HAVE CHILDREN BECOME THE STATES SECRET BOUNTY?"

The Federal Government does pay the state a set bounty on each child adopted from the system. There's also an Adoption Assistance Payment paid to the family each month until the child turns 18. There's also a one time $10,000 tax credit. In fact, we were told during our home study, We qualified for the AAP. That our daughter was considered special needs simply because she was in the system! Even though, we'd raised her from 3 months and her verbal and math skills had scored at a 6/7 year old level before she was even 4! Anyways, the other day the subject of the bounty came up. I began to think and wonder about the children adopted from the system, and the $$ paid out to each of the 50 states. If IRC, it's $4,000 per child.(Disabled children somewhat higher) Three questions came to mind; How many children are adopted each year per state? How much $ does each state receive? How is it recorded and spent? I guess the answers to my questions exist somewhere. If it's public knowledge? I have no idea where the information might be obtained. I believe the Clinton administration had the best intentions when signing the Adoption and Safe Families Act in 1997. When parents can't get it together and get their children back in a timely manner, their children do deserve a loving, stable home. No child should grow up in the system. However, I think they made a huge mistake including the financial incentives/payouts to the State as part of the final law. After all, if "money is the root of all evil", what has been bred the last 15 years within the "CPS" Agency we know today? Considering how much disrespect and degragation parents are shown, is there any interest/incentive in preserving families? In the past year I've asked myself one question many times. How does disrespecting and demeaning parents help to strenghten and reunite families? I know from personal experience that dealing with the system completely strips away someones self esteem. You feel like a complete piece of crap by the time they're done with you. It seems all they want is to have complete control over you and your life. God forbid you don't fall to your knees and do everything they say, exactly how they say to, when they say to do it. I believe the politicians need to try again. IMO, The financial incentives/payments to the State need to be removed from the law. Seems to me, the money has only succeeded in breeding corruption and abuse within a broken system. Power in the wrong hands that is completely out of control! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Adoption_and_Safe_Families_Act

"ONE AWFUL YEAR"

The 24th of this month will mark the first anniversary of the day my world was forever ripped apart. One horrendous, devastating, living nightmare, of a year since I held my darling Ahmi girl. Kissed her sweet face. Smelled her hair. Heard her voice. One year since I learned the hard way that the trust I'd placed in Genny Wrocklage was indeed misplaced. Looking back, I feel like the biggest, most gullible fool! Lots of people tried to warn me re: wreckers. "Don't trust them. They're not on your side. They'll turn on you w/out warning..." I always brushed off the negative comments. I always said, "No, no she's not like that. She has my back. She's on our side..." I believed it and her until that final day. I fell for everything she told me. Hook, line, and sinker! Even after the 2 days that she mentally and emotionally abused Ahmi and I. I told myself she really was as busy with work as she claimed. Even after she tried to place the blame on hus. and myself for the resulting meltdown my baby suffered! Until the day she stood up in a court of law and I heard the lies that came out of her mouth. It was only then that I finally realized the truth. I'd trusted and believed her. She'd played me for a FOOL! She was nothing but, an evil, lying, backstabbing, two faced bitch. I recently sent her an email. I asked her how does it feel to wreck a child's life and how does one just move on? I wonder how can that person face themselves in the mirror? Do they just shrug it off and move on to their next victim? Do they ever think back and second guess their actions/decisions? I didn't bother asking the last question. Not that I received or even expected any answer at all. One of the sickest ironies is that my soon to be ex, still believes that; "she had no choice, didn't want to hurt Ahmi or us, that she's a good person w/ a difficult job..." RETCH!!! He tells me, I should leave her in peace! Again, RETCH!! Until karma catches up to the bitch, it's not going to be possible! I did misplace my trust in her. However, she's the evil, black hearted bitch who lied to my face! Over and over! There is just no way I can let that go! He might maintain his naivety and blindness. Not me! My eyes were opened wide and fast on 1/25/12 when I heard the BS erupting from her lying mouth! Then her continued evilness. Denying Ahmi and I any kind of closure. Her true self was revealed in court and topped off w/ her final decision. I hate her freaking guts and am certain if I heard she'd died, I wouldn't be able to keep myself from dancing w/ glee! (Sorry God.) No, I'm sorry, the system SUCKS and is broken in so many ways. The people in charge at the agency are power hungry, control freaks! They are out of control and desperately need to be reeled in and put in check! I love you sweetest girl! I pray you giggled and laughed today! Forever and Always plus One more Day! XOXO Mom

"LIES SHE TOLD

Genny Wrocklage testified in court to the following lies; #1 "We were happy when Mr. C. moved out because we felt the marriage was a hinderance to the Adoption. We felt the adoption could now move forward." Within minutes she said "We have concerns about the child's safety if this court orders her placed back with Mrs. C." Well, which is it? BTW from Aug. 2010 until 1/5/2011 Miss Wrocklage saw my child one time, when per her request, I brought the baby to her office. Exactly how concerned was she? #2 "Red flags came up in Mrs. C. psychological testing." Really? That testing took place the summer of 2009. I was very persistent re: the results. I reasoned I had every right to know. I asked repeatedly about them. The agency said it was the Drs. responsibility to review them w/ me. The Dr. said the opposite. Back and forth it went. I did finally wonder what was up and asked my Adoptions worker if in fact, there was something wrong. He said,"Lynn if there had been anything wrong the baby would have been removed. There's just some confusion about who's responsibility it is to go over them with you." Finally a counselor I saw for a few months told me it was all about money. He took an extra hour one week to go over it with me because, as he said, "It was ridiculous that I'd been getting the run around for 2 months and I did deserve to hear the results. That day when I finally heard them, there was Nothing that alarmed me! The biggest thought I had was "hmm interesting that she picked up on that." That, happened to be, a quirk of my personality. Nothing that was alarming, dangerous, etc... So, the question is if there were so called, "red flags" how was it they never said anything about it for 16 months?? #3 "I know that you and she share a deep bond, that you are in fact her Mom. I respect that." Really, respect it so much that you mentally and emotionally traumatized her by keeping me away from her for 2 days when I filed court papers? And worst of all refused us the chance of closure? Refused us the chance to say goodbye to each other? I submit Ladies and Gentleman, Genny Wrocklage committed perjury in a court of law. I later pointed out these 3 facts(among others)to her and she never responded. Of course not, what can a liar say?

"IT'S ALL I HAVE"

A couple of people thought this blog wasn't a good idea. One thought among others was re: the agency and what "they" would think. Honestly, I couldn't give a CRAP! Who the hell am I trying to impress? No one! They've already destroyed my life, refused to let me say goodbye to my child, shattered my heart and my soul, shredded my self esteem, and slandered me in a Court of law. This blog is my outlet. I've written nothing but, the 100% truth. They may have lied/shut me up in all other avenues. This is one medium They have Absolutely No Control OVER! I'm not going to continue sinking into the black endless pit of despair! This blog is my attempt to reclaim my self esteem! Genny Wrocklage may have gotten away with LYING in a court of law. This is my testament! My chance to publicly say BullShit! Someone else asked me about fear re: things I'm writing about. "Fear?" There's nothing to fear when you speak/write the truth. My Dad taught me that a long time ago. I still believe it whole heartedly. No one can dispute what I've written here without exposing themselves as Liars. I'd love to get challenged in regards to this blog. I'd have the chance to defend myself and refute the lies. But, it won't happen. Because the Social Worker has already shown her true self, An Evil, back stabbing, two faced, lying BITCH! I dare them to challenge my blog! I'd welcome it!

"THREATS, LIES, FALSE. INFORMATION"

There are a few things I learned in dealing with S. Workers and the agency in general. FACT#1. Social workers Love threats and use them excessively. Especially if you're not a good little soldier. Meaning, you fail to jump on command. Or, you may dare to disagree with something that's said and/or argue with them about something. No, no! Shame on you! Your own independent thoughts, strictly forbidden! You have forfeited your right to be a free thinking independent American citizen. FACT#2. Social Workers are Great liars! They are very capable of looking you in the eye and saying whatever they need to say in the moment. Lying to your face! Usually the lie is to shut you up and ensure they won't have to deal with you and maybe your icky emotions. When Genny Wrocklage Imposed a 2 day hold on my visiting the baby. I couldn't get a straight out answer to my question,"When can I see her?" I mean, WTF?? We'd been together everyday since she was 3 1/2 months old. I'd spent the last 4 years building a relationship of trust w/ this child. I'd always been there for her. The witch couldn't grasp where I was coming from. She got annoyed that I left her so many voice mails. Well, here's a concept B$tch, show people a little bit of courtesy and respect. Rather than blowing them off, answer their simple question and they'll leave you alone. DUH!! Because of her extreme rudeness and unprofessionalism and her subsequent busy voicemail, the bitch said in court that, "I seemed to have an unhealthy obsession with my daughter." I ask every mother reading my words, what would you do if you found yourself in a similar situation? Was it too much to expect a simple honest answer to my simple honest question? Since she's not a parent, I suppose she's simply incapable of understanding and/or thinking as one. Considering how my daughter reacted when I finally got to see her, It's a fact that, Genny Wrocklage inflicted severe mental and emotional torture and pain on an innocent child. She couldn't even accept responsibility for what she did. The Bitch tried to flip the blame onto my h. and I. Incredible! FACT#3. They will NEVER correct false information! If something is wrong and they write it down, even if it's proven later to be incorrect, They will never edit the original text. If they believe a scenario happened a certain way, that's how it happened, case closed! That's the way History is rewritten. Through the eyes of the CPS workers!

AGENCY HAS DEVELOPED A GOD COMPLEX!

CPS workers are allowed to lie and distort the truth as they see it. They never correct false information. God forbid you show any emotion. That's a Big no no in their eyes. Your considered unstable if you show any kind of emotion. They love to hold "TDM's" which supposedly stand for Team Decision Meetings. Bull! They should stand for, Threaten, Demote, Meetings. Because God forbid you don't fall in step and do exactly what you're told to do. They are the Gods and there is no mercy if you don't follow their instructions to the tee! They will screw your life up completely and without mercy!

ONCE WELL MEANING, NOW BROKEN!

As a former foster parent, I'm here to tell America, the system is so absolutely broken! I think when cps was put together, it was done for all the right reasons. Now, it's filled with so much bureaucracy! There's a one size fits all mentality when it comes to their course of action. Instead of looking at the individual cases and circumstances, there seems to be one course of action for all. No looking left or right, the blinders only permit one path, one solution. Very robotic and cold. They're not about the kids any more! They totally overdo it on some cases and others are allowed to slip through the cracks! A parent allowed to continue with severe abuse for a few more years due to a Social Worker's failure! Serious, major consequences the children will now have to live and deal with for the rest of their lives. The agency is becoming a total waste of tax dollars. There is far too much bureaucracy and redundancy. There's a desperate need for checks and balances. There needs to be more transparency re: Agency policies also, with the juvenile court proceedings as well! There's an old saying re: absolute power, absolutely corrupts... We'd all be better off to remember that old saying and start paying attention. You may think that they(the parents)must deserve it, that cps is involved for some reason, yes, sometimes cps involvement is very necessary. Never the less, that doesn't mean they're above mistakes! IN SOME CASES, IN SOME SITUATIONS, THEY ARE FAILING AND FAILING MISERABLY!!