"GENNY WROCKLAGE"

My baby turned 9 today. Does she ever cross your mind? She crosses mine every day. I've reclaimed my life and now I wait. It's been nearly 5 years since you lied and left your damage behind. How do you sleep at night? Quite well I suspect. You're still an evil bitch! At least you're no longer wrecking children's lives! Maybe I was able to do some good after all.

"DEAR SUBSTITUTE"

How is my beautiful girl? I pray every day that the trauma she suffered has been healed. Are you loving, nurturing, enriching, and spoiling her to the same extent that I did? You'd better be. She deserves no less and I best never find out that she received less than she so rightfully deserves. I wonder often how you explained my sudden disappearence from her life? Please know and remember that I will tell her the truth one day. That my ex and I made some big mistakes. That she was stolen from my life. That you were too selfish, jealous, and unfeeling to allow us to say goodbye. I consider what you did to be the cruelest, most unmother like decision ever! To be jealous of our bond says a lot about your character. Not good things either. You will never get it. I understand you've never had a child of your own? You'll never get it. I shared the 1st four years of her life. Because of me she was; happy, vivacious, loving, intelligent, playful, giving, thoughtful, sweet, a complete joy to be around. All that she is, is a reflection of the time, love, caring, and nurturing she received. Never doubt, there is much left undone and unsaid between her and I. I will always be waiting for her contact. I will always have open arms and an open heart for her. She was ripped from my life but, she'll never be ripped from my heart and mind. Sleep easy and know, that I'm here. Waiting. Till then, you'd best love, protect, and treat her right. Because one day you'll deal with me. The heart never forgets! I love you sweet Ahmi girl! Forever and Always plus One more day! XXXOOO's Mom

"GOOD BYE FOR NOW"

When I started this blog in July 2011, I was broken. The monsters who are in charge of the so called "Child Protective Services" in particular, Genny Wrocklage, had destroyed my world. I take responsibility for choices I made. However, that gave the witch no license to lie to my face, stab me in the back, traumatize an innocent child and worst of all, not allow us to say goodbye. Instead the bitch made decisions that were adult based. That ignored and stepped on the loving bond my sweet Ahmi girl and I shared. Her only reasoning was it threatened the substitutes. She didn't give a crap about the pain she'd cause to Ahmi! Yet, she's supposedly for "the best interests of children." The whole agency has turned into a corrupted pile of DOG CRAP! I live for the day they will be put in check! Well, I've come a long way since that summer day a year and a half ago. I'm now divorced and will have all my ex's money (the one thing he truly cares about). This blog is forever tied to the witch who lied to my face. Thanks to family court, I've found a sense of healing and peace. I know my girl will look for me. The heart doesn't forget. God brought her and I together and he won't forsake us! I just have to be patient, build my new future, and wait! Thank God for the power of the Internet! Thank you to all my readers. Putting the story out there was a big step in my healing! I miss my girl every minute of every day. I'll love her forever and always plus one more day. I know she'll look for me and I'll be waiting with open arms! If you're going through your own hell with the as$holes, I pray you find your way through. Hold tight to your self esteem! Remember, you're so much better/more than what they say. They thrive on ripping people apart. They're trash! Hopefully there will be change one day soon! Keep fighting and speaking out! I will! Don't know if this will truly be the last post. Death and taxes are the only sure things in life. If anything comes up, I will post it. For now it's time to concentrate on building my new life. Love and Thanks to all. I love you sweetest Ahmi girl. Forever and Always, plus One more Day!xoxo Mom Lynn Connearney

"DEAR GENNY WRECKLAGE, I NEED YOU TO KNOW.."

I'm not consumed by an overwhelming hatred of you anymore. I do still hate your guts and think you're a two faced backstabbing, lying, witch. I would cross the street rather than ever help you out in an emergency. However, knowing that my blog is tied to you for the rest of time, that any of your so called "accomplishments" are connected with the real you, helps. Heck, the emails between you and Bill have brought over 1,000 views alone. Not that you freaking give a crap but, I ache every minute of every day for my girl. The tears don't fall as often but, my heart will only begin to heal the day that phone call comes. I know 100% it will come. Although you and the substitutes wouldn't allow us closure. The heart doesn't forget. My girl will search. Thank God for the miracle of the Internet. No matter where I may be, I'll always be just a phone call away! My  one regret is that it took me more than a year to read the emails I found on Bill's pc in July of 2011. When he asked me to move in with him 2/3/11, I thought his motivation was the $ he'd been court ordered to start paying me that very day. I now know he'd already hatched a plan to try and destroy me any way he could. I'm glad I ignored his pleas to cancel the divorce papers. I have no doubt he wanted to refile as the plaintiff. Wow! You were in bed with a diabolical, twisted, lying, abusive sack of crap. Yet, you've never seemed to get that. Yet, you're in charge of "...best interests of children..." How screwed up is that? You're college degree that Daddy paid for might look nice but, it's no better than toilet paper. You don't know crap about the human psyche nor about loving/being a parent. I hope and pray for the day when your agency is put in check and there is finally oversight to everything that is done in, "..the best interest of the child.." When there is no longer a $4,000 bounty on a child's life. When the corrupted curtain of secrecy is finally ripped away from the Juvenile court, "the best interest of the child" may finally be served! p.s. I won't bother signing this. You know very well who I am. A copy of this email will be posted to my blog by the end of today. Unlike yourself, I don't have anything to hide. lynmco-childpunishingservice.blogspot.com "Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." - Theodor Geisel    LMC

"BILL THE BACKSTABBER"

*** ALL STARRED COMMENTS ARE MINE ***
From: Bill Connearney
Sent: Thursday, February 03, 2011 9:28 PM
To: 'Wrocklage, Genny'
Subject: RE: Update
  Bummer, I just spent a lot of time writing my response
and the browser dumped. Let's try again.
  The eyes getting wet is not medical. When she would get her eyes wet in the shower she needs to have a towel to wipe them with. She preferred my shirt which I playfully complained about. A lot of wet shirts but it made her happy.  She loves to swim and I would tell her to gently wipe her eyes with her hands.
***Actually I always had her look up and rinsed her hair back. She didn't like water in her face and this took the drama/trauma out of hair washing. If he'd truly paid attention, he'd have known this!***
Food: I would suggest if they are not already doing so to eat at the table together. This creates a more family atmosphere and may encourage her to eat what is in front of her if she is included in if not the focus of a conversation.  She loves meatballs.  We would share spaghetti and meatballs and garlic bread on our Saturdays together. She called it our special time.
  ***Once again answered by someone who didn't have a clue! Yes, she was picky. There were a few staples to her diet. Pasta was just one. She would eat oatmeal, any fruit but, Mango, yougurt, peanut butter toast,and a few others. She was usually willing to try something if I was eating it.***
Games: We called the belly game the DOH! game. When she ran into my belly I would say DOH! and fall backwards. This made her feel big and strong because she could knock me over. Funny story. The last time I got to take Ahmi to the park we were playing the DOH! game and the little girl we met at the park was busting up laughing at how much fun Ahmi was having. A 2 year old boy actually started doing the game to me. I let him. At the beach we would put a dog leash down and back up ten feet and race to pick it up. Somehow she always just beat me. Another was "Where's Diego" I would stand with Ahmi standing behind me facing my back holding my hands. and say Where's Diego? She would say look behind you. So we would spin 180 degrees and I would say "Where I don't see you?" This would go on again and again until I said "I guess I should just keep spinning around." So she was up in the air for a few spins and I would gently put her down. The she would crawl between my legs and say "Look between your legs". Then I would say" Oh! there you are! Hello MY Love. She would say Hi Daddy and then say Let's do it the whole time. Which is her version of repeatedly. She likes to play catch with her 10" princess ball and have tea parties. Puzzles with big pieces.
***Don't bother mentioning that she LOVES books, that she is used to 2 stories every night. That she prefers books that are geared towards 5-6 year olds. That she loves to do crafty things, practice writing, color, paint, play board games such as candy land, chutes and ladders, etc... That she loves walks around the block. That she was enrolled in gymnastics, had started swimming lessons the summer before. That she loves her small stuffed animal collection and would pretend they were real. That she's very attached to her blanket, uses the edge to "silk". That she's experienced night terrors from time to time since she was a baby and how to deal with them.***
Visits: I hear and understand  their concerns about me sharing their personal info with Lynn. I can only give you my word that I would not jeopardize any time I may be granted with Ahmi. I never knew how much love I could have until I got to know Ahmi. I love her more than anyone or anything. I don't know what to call the new parents in front of Ahmi. Are they referring to themselves as mom and dad? Assuming they are a heterosexual family.
  ***3 hours earlier he'd called me. Whining about the spousal support order I'd been awarded in court earlier that day. "I can't afford to pay you and maintain an apt., please move in with me, we'll work together to try and get her back..." Backstabbing piece of crap! His word means something! NOT!!***
Last I spoke with Lynn she said she would want Ahmi to still see me if she could not see her. She believes that Ahmi believes that we got rid of her and that we don't want her anymore and that if even one of us told her that we both still and always will love her that will have a greatly positive effect on her.
  ***I spoke the words above only in regard to myself. Egotistical pr&ck! Only in his imagination was he included! I NEVER said I'd still want him to see her! What I said was, I was haunted by the damage my sudden disappearance from her life would do to her emotionally. How I wished I'd been able to say goodbye and to reassure her that she hadn't done anything wrong. That I loved her always, forever, plus one more day. He even screwed that up in March 2011! He made a little video and couldn't even remember how I said it! Stupid sh&t! I don't mean to imply he didn't love her. He loved her as much as a narcissistic personality is capable of loving someone besides themselves. The sad fact is however, he never loved her enough to put her before himself. I had a bond with her that he never came close to! I respected their relationship, even though he didn't return that respect to her and I! Ex: Telling her I was evil. He had no self control over his mouth! No sense that it's not okay to say certain things to children.***
If only I could go back in time knowing what I know now I would have adopted Ahmi as soon as possible and you would have been done with us to go on to help other families. This has been and remains to be a deeply painful lesson. I miss her so much. But rest assured I will be nothing but positive and grateful toward Ahmi's new family.  
***Yes FREAKING DUMB ASS! How long did you drag your feet? As always, sorry comes, much too little, much too late! I begged you on my knees to love her more than you hated me! You turned your back on her! How is that love? I love her so much more than I hate the wrecker B&tch! I never said bad things to her about you! That's so much more than you could ever say! THE SAD TRUTH IS YOU NEVER LOVED HER MORE THAN YOURSELF! You never put her first! That's not love!***
As always please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you help Ahmi. Bill

*** She gave you a priceless, precious gift! Her complete love, trust, adoration! You threw it back in her face because you were not WORTHY!! YOU'LL NEVER RECEIVE SUCH A GIFT AGAIN! The sad thing is, you can't even understand or appreciate how sad that is. What a loss that truly is.***

"EMAIL I SENT TO WRECKER LAST NIGHT"

You're so stupid! If you'd asked me, re: hair washing, and her eyes. I always had her look up and rinsed back! As for your statements re: my upsetting Ahmi, not being supportive... You're an ignorant COW! I'd rather cut my tongue out then to ever x infinity hurt her emotionally! Unlike yourself, (and what you put her through those 2 days at Polinsky) I didn't emotionally and mentally abuse her! You did! Worthless Bitch! For you to try and blame Bill and I, instead of owning what you put her through...  I'd always freaking cooperated with you! Your comments in that email were unjustified, slanderous, and a figment of your own paranoid imagination! FYI: As much as I hate the air you breathe, I love Ahmi so much more! But, you being the judgemental c#nt that you are, put your own delusional conclusions on me! The thing is, if you'd been a decent human being and been honest with me, I'd have respected you for it. Instead, you were a disrespectful, skanky, back stabbing, liar! I trusted you and you betrayed that to the max! You can blow it all off in your typical snotty ass, know it all way. Inside I know the truth. That's what matters!   Bill is a passive- agressive narcesstic, controlling abuser. Yet, you couldn't kiss his ass enough! I wonder if I could raise the interest of Mike Turko/ news outlets re: how cps kissed up to an abusive, evil parasite! What goes around comes around. You'll get what's coming to you. My daily prayer is that Ahmi becomes a very rebellious teen! The substitutes will pay! Wait till I tell her the substitute put her own feelings above Ahmi's!  You think I was thrilled when S. popped up? No, it was nice not to have her drama around for 2 yrs. Yet, I was able to put myself in her shoes. My feelings were 3rd! That's a Mom! The substitute cow put her jealous insecurities 1st! Does she think Ahmi is the awesome child she is due to magic fairy dust?  No, regardless of the bullshit vomit that came from your mouth in court, it was because of the love and nurturing I showered on her! You didn't know her at all! Even she knew how extremely stupid your comment was re: errands. That was the #1 all time most worthless comment ever said to a traumatized child! You need child development because you have no clue! They're not little adults! They don't think like us! p.s. I knew your address 2 years ago. If you know so much and are so right about me, I'd have been at your door a longgg time ago! For a college educated, so called professional, you're pretty stupid re: life! I'm sure I'm not the 1st person you pissed off! Luckily, I fought back with words....

"BACK STABBERS, WRECKER AND EX..."

***All comments between* are mine. Found this email yesterday while cleaning out mail folders. Note the date, this was 8 days after the witch wrecked my world, was exposed as the lying back stabber she is, I'd just been to court re: spousal support(I won). My ex called me that night. Whining he couldn't afford to pay me and maintain an apt. He asked me to move in that very night. Allegedly, we'd work together to get Ahmi back. As I discovered later, all BS! I will post his part of conversation in a few days.***
Sent: Thu 2/3/2011 5:50 PM
To: Bill Connearney
Subject: Update
Hi, Bill.  I hope that you are doing ok. 
I saw AC today and she is doing very well considering.  She is happy and smiling often.  The family says that she talks a lot about you, more than Lynn for whatever reason.  (Perhaps she is just avoiding that other loss right now.)  She did so with me today, as well.  Today she was informed the Court's decision for her to remain with this family and because she internalizes she did not have as large of a reaction as I would have expected.  I waited a week to tell her because I thought moving to a new home and getting this news all at once was too much.  The family is going to be encouraging her to talk and let out her feelings, as I suggested her to do. They have been very good about honoring you and Lynn's name in their home and helping to keep her memories alive.  She actually has taught them a game she used to play with you where she runs into your belly and you make a noise. They play it in the home with her.
  ***It never occured to you witch that was because she was hurting inside, mad at me? Also, one of your many BS statements was,"She's talking about you too much. It interfers with the bond they're trying to build with her." Which is it? Liar!?***
I spoke to AC about you having her things and that I'm going to get them for her so she can have her old things at her new home. She would like to see you so we should plan on meeting at a park or somewhere in a couple of weeks. We can keep in touch about a day and time that will work. 
As much as I think AC should see Lynn too I am concerned about Lynn handling it emotionally and how this may affect AC.  I have to weigh the two and make the decision that I think is going to make her as comfortable as possible in her new home because it is something that isn't going to change, it's the Court's order.  I am afraid that Lynn isn't in a place to support the placement and this could have negative consequences for AC.  When parents don't support a child's new home it can feel scary to the child to go back there, "If my Mommy doesn't like it then I can't either". I have shared this with Lynn. The family seems open to having a visit with you in the future too, but they are concerned with their private info being shared with Lynn by you. We would have to feel that you could keep certain information private no matter what.  Having said this though I feel deeply for Lynn even though she doesn't believe me. I can't imagine what she is going through. I feel very, very sad for her. I don't know how she will ever rebound.
I have a couple of questions. Do you know of some dinners/food that AC likes?  She apparently says she likes things and then the family will cook it and she doesn't like it.  Maybe just a matter of different styles of preparing the dish. They want to make her meals she enjoys. 
Also, she says she can't get her eyes wet because it makes them tear. They are hoping this is just the common 4yo doesn't like water in her face stuff and doesn't have anything to do with her eye procedures. They wondered if you knew about this. 
Thanks for your time, Genny Wrocklage, MSW Protective Services Worker

***Witch you didn't even give me a freaking chance! Talking behind my back with a scum bag piece of crap liar, who KNOWS SQUAT!!! I was her primary caregiver, spent 24/7 with her. Bill didn't even freaking want her the first 2 years! You stupid piece of human trash!!

"DEAR SWEET AHMI GIRL(LITTLE ONE)"

Genny Wrocklage refused to allow us any chance for closure. No goodbye, no closure. 500+ days. I'm starting to realize the pain is mine to carry until the day we meet again.
Wow 5 1/2 years old! Not so little anymore! Kindergarten will be starting soon. Are you excited? I remember when you were 2. You wanted to go to big kid school. Like "your kids" Sam and A.J. What do you know? The time is almost here. I'm sure you've grown and learned so much over the past year and a half! I often wonder; Do you still like elephants, tea parties, the beach, flip flops, chocolate? Is Jasmine still your favorite princess? Do you still silk? I miss your silks! I bet your hair is so long! Like I always said, I'm sure you skipped breakfast the day they were handing out the good hair gene. I'm sure you were first in line! Lol! Do you still play little tricks to hear others laughter? I miss your sweet impish grin every day! I pray everyday that your heart is light and the sound of your sweet laughter is heard often. The sound of your laughter and giggles makes the world a much better place! I hope that wonderful sound often brightens the world around you! You deserve so much laughter and joy! I hope and pray you are happy and well! Although we weren't able to say goodbye, I've never stopped loving or thinking about you! I'm so very sorry that I just disappeared from your life without saying goodbye. I need you to know, understand, and to believe that it wasn't your fault! You could never do or say anything that would cause me to go away or to ever stop loving you! Ever since you were a little baby I've said,"I'll Love You Forever and Always Plus One More Day!" That has always been true. Forever and always it will be true! You're the kindest, sweetest, smartest, bestest little girl ever! Just as we always told you, you're beautiful on the inside as well as the outside! That makes you very special! Lots of people have outer beauty. However, many of them don't have the beautiful heart that you do! It was a joy and a privilege to be a part of your life! Someday when you're grown, I would love to sit and share so many awesome memories with you. I have your scrapbook, baby journals, and your dvd. I will keep them safe until the day I pass them on to you alone! Every night I look up at the moon. I pray you giggled and laughed that day. I always say, "I love you sweetest Ahmi girl. Forever and Always plus One More Day!" Until the day we are reunited, I hold you close within my heart! Sending you tons of hugs and kisses, and oceans full of love! Mom p.s. Chris and Terry are having a baby girl in Sept. Right after school starts. Her name will be Adriana Rose. I'm making a pink and white blanket for her. Also making a small scrapbook. Well, I'm decorating the pages. They'll add the pics. I LOVE YOU!

529 LONG, LONELY DAYS

Of course time marches on. Two 4th of July celebrations have now come and gone. My sweetest Ahmi girl I hope that you had an awesome day! That you giggled and laughed. Your happiness and joy lights up the world around you! I can only imagine how much you've grown! How much you've learned! I so enjoyed observing and encouraging your thirst for knowledge. It was such a privilage and honor to be part of your life. You were an awesome baby! I'm sure you're growing into an awesome little girl! I pray everyday your heart is light and care free. Someday when we meet again, I will share all our special moments and times with you. I wait and pray for the day we can sit together and talk. I'm sorry about any pain and/or anger you may feel inside as you grow. I can only hope one day for a chance to respond to any lies you may have been told. Also, to answer all the questions you'll have regarding your 1st years. Your first tooth, solid foods, sitting up, etc... It's all in your baby journals and scrapbook. I also saved a diary re: your birth Mom. I will keep it all for you. They took you away, please understand I couldn't let the journals go as well. I understand there will be holes regarding your baby and toddler years until some time passes. I apologize for that however, they stole you so quickly, allowed us no good bye. I couldn't bear the thought of anyone sharing what belongs exclusively to you and I. I do promise to keep them safe until the day I place them in your hands. I hope you enjoy the rest of your summer sweetest girl! As always, I pray you giggled and laughed today. I Love You Forever and Always, Plus One More Day! Kisses and Hugs, Mom

"DEAR SOCIAL WRECKER"

Dear Genny Wrocklage aka Wrecklage or Social Wrecker, How has the past 16 months been for you? I'm sure you haven't lost any sleep or been so depressed all you could do was cry for days at a time. You wouldn't know anything about that. After all, you're in the business of wrecking lives and moving on right? I'm sure you must have no conscience. Otherwise how could you face yourself in the mirror day after day. Knowing what you've done. That you're in bed with an evil agency that rips children away from parents who love them and deposits them with strangers and the hell with any emotional damage along the way. After all, you've done your job right? The federal government pays the bounty and you're on to the next victim. Who gives a crap about the trauma done? You must be one cold hearted, evil bitch to work for such a demonic system! You made it much worse with the lies you spoke so readily. I never saw it coming. You had me so fooled right till the end. Right up till the day in court when you stuck that knife in my back! Good for you bitch! You did a great snow job on me. "I know she's your daughter. I've got your back. I know you two belong together." Lying, evil bitch! I fell for it hook, line, and sinker. What a fool I was! You showed me! Then you have the balls to come up to me seeking praise for the bull crap lies you'd just testified to in court?! Tell me, do you ever give Ahmi a second thought? Are you that sure about what you've done? Screw the emotional abuse and damage. One more check for the system! I want you to know, with medication and the help of a great therepist, I'm emerging from the black hell you condemned me to last year. However, I also want you to know, I hate your freaking guts as much as ever and I always will. Because I gave my trust to you and you ground it into the dirt. You stabbed me in the back so completely! That's why I will always hate the air you breathe. I know karma will catch you sooner or later. You will so deserve it! BTW I've known your address for more than a year. If all the vomit that came from your mouth about me was true, I would have used that knowledge in an evil way. I'm surprised someone with your education is so street stupid! I'm sure I'm not the first one you've pissed off. If I were you I'd be a little more cautious with my personal life and info. Someone who doesn't possess the restraint I have, may just come knocking one of these days. See you in Hell Bitch!

"EASTER TIME AGAIN"

Hello my sweetest Ahmi girl. Happy Easter and Happiest Spring! The 2nd Easter has passed since I saw your beautiful face. Although, the holiday is changed for now and I missed you as much as always. I'm trying to remain true to my resolution. One less Easter (hopefully) till we are together once more. Until then, I wish you all the happiness you so deserve, the laughter and the giggles that are your gift to the world around you, and the lightest of hearts unscarred from pain. I pray you giggled and laughed today Sweetest of all girls. I Love you Forever and Always plus One more Day! xoxo Mom

"LIES V. TRUTH"

As far back as I can remember, my Mother seemed to prefer lying over the truth. My third and youngest brother was born a little bit less than 2 months before I turned 7. I very clearly remember when she told me it was a boy, I didn't believe her. I was convinced she was playing a cruel trick on me since she knew how much I wanted a sister. It wasn't until I saw his diaper being changed that I knew it was true. My first words upon seeing the truth,"Take him back and trade him in for a girl." Of course we kept him. I love him very much and those words were only my childish disappointment. My adult brain thinks back on that experience and I've often asked myself, why would my first reaction be of non belief re: my Mother's words? I was almost 7 yet already I'd learned my Mother couldn't be trusted. I won't go into the details but, yes, due to cruel things she'd done and lies I'd heard her speak, I'd already discovered my Mother was mean sometimes and didn't always tell the truth. Around the same time, my 2 younger brothers and I were upstairs in my parents bedroom jumping on the bed. My Dad who was in the Living room right below us, called for us to come down. He asked each of us in turn, "were you jumping on the bed?" I answered truthfully, "yes Dad." My brothers, I suppose trying to avoid getting into trouble, both said "no." They both had to stand in the corner. I didn't because, my Dad said, "Lynn told the truth." So many years later and that lesson is still a part of me! To this day, I respect someone who speaks the truth! Truth may sometimes hurt but, it's the right way to go. ALWAYS! I hate a liar. It's the worst thing someone can do to me. If Genny Wrocklege had had the decency and self respect to be truthful with me, I in turn would have respected that. Instead she lied, stabbed me in the back, walked all over the trust I'd placed in her. That's why forever and always, IMO, she's a waste of the air she breathes. To be in her position, as far as I'm concerned, wreckers are obligated to treat people with; truth, dignity, and respect. SHE FAILED! May she rot! I love you Ahmi girl! Forever and Always, plus One more day! I pray you giggled and laughed today and that your heart is light! xxoo Mom